Your Honor, I Confess

Now I cannot tell a lie …
Published by Deborah Negron  – Child of God

December 5, 2022

A scoffer/mocker  seeks wisdom in vain, but knowledge is easy for a man of understanding. Leave the presence of a fool, for there you do not meet words of knowledge. The wisdom of the prudent is to discern his way, but the folly of fools is deceiving. Fools mock at the guilt offering, but the upright enjoy acceptance.
Proverbs 14:6-9

Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear. Esphesians 4:29

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. Romans 12:2

They said to you, “In the last time there will be scoffers, following their own ungodly passions.”
Jude 1:18

Blessed is the man Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, Nor stands in the path of sinners, Nor sits in the seat of the scornful;
But his delight is in the law of the Lord, And in His law he meditates day and night.
Psalms 1:1-2 NKJV


How happy is the one who does not walk in the advice of the wicked or stand in the pathway with sinners or sit in the company of mockers! Instead, his delight is in the Lord’s instruction, and he meditates on it day and night.
Psalms 1:1‭-‬2 CSB

Your honor, I confess. I confess that at times I have opted for the pleasures of sin.

Your honor, I confess, I sat and listened as others claiming to love the Lord, made a mockery of worship.

I sat there, your honor and I partook of the foolishness of their supposed humor. They blaspheme your name. I sat and listened and did nothing.
All the while my eyes were lulled to take my mind off of the things that honor my Lord.

Your honor, I am guilty, for my eyes watched the series that caused me to open doors to the ocult in my home.
I watched things that seemed to be provoking my curiosity. I sat and listened and saw.

They spoke of tarot cards and of the higher consciousness and some how I was intrigued. I sat and watched several episodes. My eyes were blinded. The desire to fulfill my curiosity was what led me to my spiritual lethargy.

Your honor, I listened, I listened as the supposed christian comedian made fun of those who lift their hands in worship. I laughed your honor. I participated in their disrespect of those things which are holy.

Your honor, I even invited others to watch. I led others astray. Your honor, I am ashamed. I was blinded by my own desires and my own inconsistencies.

Your honor, I am guilty of diminishing the precious grace of God.

I have listened to conversations that were not edifying. I repeated things without verifying the facts.

Your honor, I misjudged and looked down on those who would not participate in such things. I even agreed when others, callled when super religious.

Your honor, I have no defense. I cannot take back the things I have done.

I was blinded by sin and my own flesh. I was not enamoured enough with my Lord, to guard what is holy.

Your honor, I even stepped in to the occult when I marked my own body. It was a fad. Everyone was doing it. I chose markings of faith and of good things I thought.

Your honor, truth be told,, I just wanted to have my own way.

Your honor, I am guilty. I am guilty of trampling on the blood of my redeemer.

I am guilty of belittling the Manger and the Cross and the Empty Tomb.

I toyed with sin. I chose to walk in it, all the while, I claimed to serve you.

Your honor, I am guilty. My lips sang your praises and then with these same lips, I sang songs that offended your name. I danced to songs and spent time with those that dishonor you. I considered it an opportunity for growth. Lord, I was so lost.

Your honor, I am guilty of every sin. For I have hated my fellowman and quoted scripture to make myself seem righteous.

I have held grudges your honor. I have not forgiven, then, I assumed your grace would still cover me.

Oh my God! Your honor, I am doomed by my own mouth.

Your honor, I said I loved you but I behaved as one who never knew you. Lord, I was rebellious and called it opinionated. I was sinful and called it having my rights. I was arrogant and called it my own position. I was a victim and used it as my defense to despise all who operate in hatred. Little did I know, I became one of them.

Your honor, it is too late. The years have past and I have no time to make ammends. It is too late.
I blamed rhe preacher, the teacher, the upbringing, the neighbors. I blamed your church and all I could to shift my shame.

Your honor, I stand before you totally broken. My own guilt has led me to confess. I am the one who deserved to die for all my wrongdoings. I should have been nailed to that tree.
I am the one who should have been crucified. I am the one who deserved death and hell.

Your honor, my death date is approaching. The time of my end may soon come.

Your honor, I stand here before you to be judged.

The sound of the Alarm woke me up. I do not know if I was asleep or awake. But the sound of the alarm caused me to open my eyes.

The thought in my heart clear as day.

Today, is the day of Salvation. Today there is still time to right every wrong. Today is the day of deliverance.  Today the Blood Still Holds the Power to Save, to Cleanse, to Make New. Today the Lord’s arm is not shortened. His reach is still deep.

Oh, it is not too late. There is still time.

Run to Jesus!!!

We have all fallen short of the glory of God. We have all failed. We are all guilty. But the Blood of Jesus is still able to wash away every stain.

Your honor and glory and power are mine to have.
I fall at the mercy of the Father. I am washed in the blood of the Lamb. My sins are now forgiven. My debt is paid in full.

No longer bound, I am free. No longer blind, I can see. No longer dead but alive in Christ. I am Born Again.

So, with my confession and my repentance and my turning away from sin I come to Jesus.

The word of God is clear.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say, “We have not sinned,” we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.
1 John 1:9‭-‬10 CSB

So, let’s not mock the Lord. Let’s not take lightly his patience.

The Lord is not slow in fulfilling His promise, in the sense in which some men speak of slowness. But He bears patiently with you, His desire being that no one should perish but that all should come to repentance. 2 Peter 3:9

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believes in him will not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16

Today, come, wash your filthy stains in the Love He has given. Make the rest of your days better than the times of the past.

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