Published by Sister Deborah Negron – Child of God
Now Joseph had a dream, and he told it to his brothers; and they hated him even more. So he said to them, “Please hear this dream which I have dreamed: There we were, binding sheaves in the field. Then behold, my sheaf arose and also stood upright; and indeed your sheaves stood all around and bowed down to my sheaf.” And his brothers said to him, “Shall you indeed reign over us? Or shall you indeed have dominion over us?” So they hated him even more for his dreams and for his words. Then he dreamed still another dream and told it to his brothers, and said, “Look, I have dreamed another dream. And this time, the sun, the moon, and the eleven stars bowed down to me.” So he told it to his father and his brothers; and his father rebuked him and said to him, “What is this dream that you have dreamed? Shall your mother and I and your brothers indeed come to bow down to the earth before you?” And his brothers envied him, but his father kept the matter in mind. Then his brothers went to feed their father’s flock in Shechem. And Israel said to Joseph, “Are not your brothers feeding the flock in Shechem? Come, I will send you to them.” So he said to him, “Here I am.” Then he said to him, “Please go and see if it is well with your brothers and well with the flocks, and bring back word to me.” So he sent him out of the Valley of Hebron, and he went to Shechem. Now a certain man found him, and there he was, wandering in the field. And the man asked him, saying, “What are you seeking?” So he said, “I am seeking my brothers. Please tell me where they are feeding their flocks.”
They did not understand. They thought it cruel of the father to show much more affection to this brother.
They felt it unfair and envied him. They felt angered by the possibility of this one prospering.
Yes, the closest ones will often read us the wrong way. Their rejection is only part of the preparation. Don’t be angered. This too will God use for good.
They have challenged your election. They have questioned your position. This too is part of the preparation.
They will abandon you, forget about you. Treat you like you never mattered. This too, God will use for the process needed to cause you to be humble and meek. This, God will use to shape a character in you that is able to stand in the midst of Adversity.
Oh, I know, you’re the odd one out. The one that is considered too deep. Too intense, they say. Perhaps they look at you as one who is ‘too religious’.
The one who always has to be the one to point to the heavens or the one who always seems to point to the Lord.
“So heavenly minded you are of no earthly use.”
There is time for everything. You are wired to tight. You need to back off. Their calls stop. They do not include you. You are the one always reaching out. It’s okay.
I promise you.
God is doing a work behind the scenes.
Your lack of knowledge and your pain does not stop God from completing his promise in due time. He will fulfill that he has said he will, in your life.
You are looked down on. The cast away. Too many mistakes to even consider you. It’s okay. They will sell you to the highest bidder.
They prefer friends over you. That’s all part of God’s plan.
For in this process you will learn that when others abandon you. The Lord will never leave you nor forsake you.
You will, many times, feel alone and disconnected. It’s okay. The Lord has separated you. He is bringing you to a higher plain. One you cannot come to on your own. They cannot bring you to this place. Only the Potter knows the purpose of his vessel. Only he designs it for a reason. But while it is in His hands it is being formed. It has not yet been prepared for what the Potter has thought it would become.
Others will see the clay being a vessel and then notice that the Potter destroys it within his hands again.
All is lost. This will appear to be their assumption. But the Potter will fashion this vessel again.
A new creation. Old things have passed away and there, the day will come when you will be rebirthed. Born again, not of the flesh but of the Holy Spirit.
You will be lifted up so that, you will be a blessing and not a curse. You will be lifted up, not to bring others down or to retaliate but rather, to be a vessel of Reconciliation. You will be able to set the captives free. To preach the deliverance of the Lord and show mercy to those in need. You will be able to have empathy and sympathy.
It’s all good. No matter how detached you may feel from those closest to you. The Lord’s election has a price.
You will walk it alone, not because they were cruel but because the Potter wanted to show you this lesson. Their opinions do not matter. He alone is able to make and form in you his purpose. He alone is the one who’s wisdom will lead you to the path that is made just for you. He alone is able to do exceedingly, abundantly, more than you can imagine.
So, the dream… it was not in vain. So, the plan, it was not aborted. So, your position, in God, requires you to be separated from others for a season. But when the day will come when the Lord will present you as a beacon of hope.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.
You, Lord wanted me alone and without outside interventions. You wanted me to go to the fiery furnace, to show me that the flame would not burn me.
You placed me in in the depths of despair so, I would recognize that even there, your Spirit was with me.
You allowed me to be thrown in what appeared to be a den of lions, to demonstrate that greater is He that is in me, than he that is in the world.
You allowed me to walk through the valley of the shadow of death to demonstrate that no weapon formed against me would prosper.
You have seated me in Heavenly places and given me authority in Christ. I am not my own. I am yours. For you have chosen me since before the foundations of the world. You prepared my steps. You orchestrated the melody that was to be my life. The symphony was all tuned to your direction. This is my very life, your election and creation. Everything was done perfectly. For you work in the secret place. In my heart, mind and soul.
Today, I stand in awe of your goodness.
Today, I know the reason why you chose me. I can see your fingerprints on this vessel.
I am but like a reflection. Nothing more, nothing less. Like the moon, that has not light of it’s own but was designed masterfully to capture the light of the sun and give such an outstanding reflection that the earth is given just enough light to have, for rest.
Lord, let me be one who brings others to this place of rest. Let me set captives free.
Let me feed your sheep. Let me shine nothing of myself. I only have what you have given me.
I am not disheartened by rejection. I am not surprised by your correction. I am humbled by the painstaking time and dedication you have taken to fashion for yourself this earthen vessel.
I KNOW WHOM I HAVE BELIEVED IN.
You have chosen to love me when I was unlovely. When I was tossed away, you picked me up. Glory to your name.
You designed me to be only light and salt. Without you I can do nothing. Through Christ however, I am more than a conqueror. I am complete in being emptied of myself and filled by your love. I am weak and frail. Yet your strength is made perfect in my weakness.
They look for others. Yet you looked for me. They despised yet you ignited the flame of your Spirit in me so that your light oh Jesus, would be seen.
Oh, how majestic is your name of God. You choose the foolish things to confound the wise.
I am yours, a simple vessel that was made to bring you honor. Nothing more.
It is well with my soul. It is well with my soul. The chords of your love have brought me to delight in your presence. I can sit at the feet of my Master knowing full well that as undeserving as I may be, I am Still His election. I am Still His Chosen Child By Adoption. By the Blood and the Spirit he gave me Newness of life. This was Your Will for Me.