My Fear Is Gone

Published by Deborah Negron M.A.

May 19, 2021

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
2 Corinthians 5:17

Change is hard. Old habits die hard. New things are difficult to swallow. We  may have issues that we cannot or have not dealt with that we must resolve before moving forward…


I loved my childhood. I had the best parents. Then the teen years came.
Alot of bad things happened to me during my teen years in NY.
I promised myself, “When I grow up I’m moving to Connecticut.” My grandmother lived there and my memories with her were pleasant.

Last year, I moved back to NY. I knew God was guiding me here. I Fought it tooth and nail. Fear was an issue. Memories, past hurts, past mistakes etc.
Last week, for a job requirement I had to get fingerprinted. I was told I needed to go back to a place I had said, I would never go back to.

I was fearful of past memories.
Guess what, God had it all planned out for me, I am sure.

In Psychology there are approaches that help us deal with issues that were unresolved. Some of these include,  Gestalt Therapy, Existential therapy and Cognitive Behavioral therapy. 
A person must systematically be confronted or be encouraged to discuss what they fear in order to come to grips with the fact that they do not have to be afraid any longer. They must change their narratives and restructure their way of thinking.

Ha, Oh, My God is faithful. I had to face my fear, but He knew how and where and when to make it happen.

I had no intention of ever heading back to that area. But God knew, how far I needed to go in order for Him to heal my heart and mind.
Traffic!!!! I hate Traffic! 

I had to cross that Bridge. I was stuck in traffic… memories flooded my mind, fear.
Then, God’s mercy came…

Yes, the traffic, which I hate, was a blessing in this instance.  You see I love Bridges. I love the structures and their designs.

God allowed me to be stuck for like 15 minutes on the Brooklyn Bridge.
My fear had to be confronted.
Jesus is the Bridge.   He is the pathway. He is the Connection from death to life.

The Place,The Timing, The Traffic were all tools in the Lord’s hands to bring about my healing.

At that moment, thinking negatively seemed futile. I began to pray. Then, I had a thought. Well, I’m stuck here…. The thought was…
I put on the camera of my cell phone and while being stuck in traffic, I took pictures. Tons of pictures of the beautiful Brooklyn Bridge. 

The memories seemed distant and unable to cause me anymore distress. I became calm, then overjoyed with the thought of How My God is Able to Turn My Weeping into Dancing.
How He can heal the Brokenhearted. My mind was filled with the hope I have in Christ Jesus.
My fear was gone.
A new memory made.

Being able to move forward sometimes means facing our past. With the Lord we can do it.

Yes it is hard… A new City, a new life without a loved one, a new career, a new venture.
We need God to help us get there.

He is more than able to supply all our needs.

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.
Philippians 4:13 KJV

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