Lord Help Me Examine Myself

Published by Deborah Negron M.A.

April 21, 2020

Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sleep.
Psalm. 127:1-2

What have I toiled in?
Where has my energy been spent?
How have I used my time?
Have I considered life as a reason and rhyme?
Have I concerned myself more about the external cares than divine affairs?
Have I stopped to see that the Lord is the center of my home?
Or has my heart been my inclined to being relevant to this time.

Oh Lord, lest you build us up, we will fall.
Like a house of cards carefully placed with no foundation.
Has my mind been most interested in temporal affections. Elections for pleasure and time spent in leisure.
Have I bowed down to pray in the beginning of each day? Or have I simply prayed casually and forgotten to stay?

Have I uttered the words I don’t want to be religious as if this claim was some important declaration.
When True Religion is spoken of in your word.
Not as a pharisee. But as one concerned with what concerns thee.

Have I been among those who are blessed. Not blessed with possessions that can be taken away. Not blessed with positions or the grandeur of men.
Am I considered among those you Lord, said were blessed?

“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
“Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
“Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied. “Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.
“Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
“Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
“Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
“Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you. Matthew 5:3‭-‬12

Is my spirit in need of your presence as one who is poor and needy?
Do I weep, yes cry for what touches your heart?
Do I hunger and thirst for what is right, seeking only your presence to be satiisfied?
Am I meek or am I haughty? Am I humble enough to understand that it is by your grace I am forgiven and by your mercy I am restored?
Am I merciful and do I show others your love tangibly?
Am I thinking on those things which are true, honest, just, pure and lovely? Is my my Renewed daily in your word? (Philippians 4:8, Roman’s 12:2).
Lord, do I seek to be in peace by promoting unity and not discord? Is my life filled with those who see the evidence that demonstrates your love in me?

As the Psalmist said, Create in me a clean heart oh Lord, and renew a right spirit within me. Psalm 51:1

Examine me Oh Lord. Shine the light of your Holy Spirit in the deepest parts of me. Bring out every impurity and every false way.

I am inclined to note that I have yet not reached the stature of the perfect man. Thus I am in need of thy mercy. You are the Potter, I am but the clay. Mold me, make me again today. (Ephesians 4:13, Jeremiah 18).

Lord, my prayer today, is that I would be found pleasing in your sight. That my life would be considered one which brings you honor. That the world may witness who you are in my actions and in my speech. Lord, only in you I am complete. Have your way in me. Lord my rest and peace is found only when I am in thee.

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