I questioned the Lord He showed Me Mercy

I Questioned the Lord
He Showed me Mercy

Published By Deborah Negron M.A.

August 19, 2018

Jeremíah 15:11, 15-21
The Lord said, Truly your release, affliction, and strengthening will be for good [purposes]; surely [Jeremiah] I will intercede for you with the enemy and I will cause the enemy to ask for your aid in the time of evil and in the time of affliction. [Jer. 21:1, 2; 37:3; 42:2; Rom. 8:28.] [Jeremiah said] O Lord, You know and understand; [earnestly] remember me and visit me and avenge me on my persecutors. Take me not away [from joy or from life itself] in Your long-suffering [to my enemies]; know that for Your sake I suffer and bear reproach. Your words were found, and I ate them; and Your words were to me a joy and the rejoicing of my heart, for I am called by Your name, O Lord God of hosts. I sat not in the assembly of those who make merry, nor did I rejoice; I sat alone because Your [powerful] hand was upon me, for You had filled me with indignation. Why is my pain perpetual and my wound incurable, refusing to be healed? Will you indeed be to me like a deceitful brook, like waters that fail and are uncertain? Therefore thus says the Lord [to Jeremiah]: If you return [and give up this mistaken tone of distrust and despair], then I will give you again a settled place of quiet and safety, and you will be My minister; and if you separate the precious from the vile [cleansing your own heart from unworthy and unwarranted suspicions concerning God’s faithfulness], you shall be My mouthpiece. [But do not yield to them.] Let them return to you–not you to [the people]. And I will make you to this people a fortified, bronze wall; they will fight against you, but they will not prevail over you, for I am with you to save and deliver you, says the Lord. And I will deliver you out of the hands of the wicked, and I will redeem you out of the palms of the terrible and ruthless tyrants.

I felt so disheartened…
got tired of the surroundings…
Saw so much evil,
My eyes became weary…
Lord I felt lonely and abandoned
Rejected and forsaken…
Felt pity on myself
For what I’d seen and was in…
Felt as if though righteous living
Had gotten me to fearing and tearing..
This feeling of dissolution
Took my heart to some confusion…
I called out to you Lord,
You did not cast me off…
You told me go stop looking inward
and start looking upwards.
You showed me mercy
When my eyes had been blinded.
You gave me provison…
When I was down trodden.
You brought me great consolation…
For all my frustration…
You showed me compassion.
You were not offended by my questions
Nor angered by my lack of understanding.
You simply opened my eyes. to see your grace…
You washed over me
and re-established my faith.
You took my feet from sinking sand
And reassured them on the rock to stand.
Oh you reminded me of your love…
How it fits me like a glove.
It comforts me…
Washes over me…
The Blood is present still for me.
You arm was not shortened it hold me still.
You were not rejecting no,
You brought me to repenting…
Made me take all my doubting
And surrender it for your glory…
You loved me regardless of
all my shortcomkngs…
You loved me in spite of all my questioning.

Oh where else could I ever find
such love so unwavering…
Transforming and Restoring
You alone trade my sorrows in to dancing,
Change my weakness ,
For strength enduring…
Make me stable and secure…
Only you can Bring these blinded eyes Clarity.
Only you can bring these feeble hands stability.
You can bring life where death has been…
Your resurrection power is at work in me.
So, glory to God in the highest,
Peace on earth there for me…
My Jesús has lifted me out of Captivity.
Yes, no matter my failures, my losses,
My sins he xovered on that tree…
He shed there the blood that covered my sin.
I am free, free indeed…
Lord you have rescued me!