The Best Therapy
Author – Deborah Negron
He knows me well… I don’t have to pretend…
Don’t have to hide… He knows me well…
I don’t need to impress,
Nor convince Him of my loyalty.
He is well acquainted with my stresses.
My insecurities, He knows too well.
Don’t have to masquerade
Nor be in performance.
He knows my weakest points…
and He has been present in my triumphs.
He has never left me.
Nor will He tire of my ever evolving thoughts.
He is cognizant of my moments of despair and has already assigned a word for each new day and each new struggle.
I am loved, regardless of my thoughts that seem to be on a roller-coaster of emotions at times.
He understands my fears.
He continuously affirms my steps…
366 ways He says in His word,
to me and to you…
Fear not, worry not, be not anxious,
my peace I give to you.
I have loved you such as you are.
He reminds me that His love for me is extravagant.
He tells me that despite my many failures,
His forgiveness is here for me.
I just have to stop trying to hold on…
I just need to Let Him Hold Me.
Oh, but this is hard for me.
I have become accustomed to grief.
I have shared my misery with sorrow and have formed a bond.
I have become entangled by my pain
It seems to have taken
A permanent residence in my life.
When my thoughts have become my worst enemy, and the blows to my mind intense, When I have cried out in sincerity…
“Lord deliver me from my own thoughts.”
YOU HAVE COME TO MY RESCUE…
Let me understand that your ways are higher than my ways. Let me remember to taste and see that your word is good. It is the Bread of Life and the anchor that holds.
Let me see your glory in the evil day. For you have kept me in the Hollow your hand.
You have been present and not abandoned me. Though, I seem to recall more of the negative…
You have remained faithful.
Let me look upwards and not focus within.
Let me not introspect…
For surely this will make me see
The depths of my need.
Let me instead look you you,
The Lifter of my head.
Let me look to the Author of my story.
Let me read instead your lines
the letter of love you have written for me.
You have loved me
with an everlasting love.
His word is my best medicine.
It is therapy for my soul.
It lifts me up, re-aligns my perspective,
and deposits the infusion of hope.
It enables the weak to become strong…
The broken to be restored.
It trades beauty for ashes.
It enlightens the mind and causes
A state of unexplainable peace.
Joy is part of the recipe.
And then the sense of belonging floods my soul. Oh How you know me Lord!!!
Oh How you Love me…
For today I am assured that All is well.
Tomorrow I can trust, you will meet me again,
For as I close my eyes to sleep, you always remain.
O Lord , you have searched me and known me! You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar. You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord , you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it. For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord , plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
you whom I took from the ends of the earth, and called from its farthest corners, saying to you, “You are my servant, I have chosen you and not cast you off”; fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Behold, all who are incensed against you shall be put to shame and confounded; those who strive against you shall be as nothing and shall perish. You shall seek those who contend with you, but you shall not find them; those who war against you shall be as nothing at all. For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, “Fear not, I am the one who helps you.”